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May 1999

May 1, 1999


An absolutely beautiful day, 76 degrees a 4:04pm.

On this Mayday, WFCR played the Brahms Violin Concerto. Left a message on Melinda McIntosh's phone inviting her to visit the Quadrangle with me sometime. Called Aunt Maria, who said she is going out today to have lunch with Ruth. I had hotdogs and lima beans for supper. I love lima beans.

Left here about 9am, stopping first at Pride in the Acres, which was open with a chubby woman at the cash register. They are going to start selling Subway sandwiches like that place across from St. Michael's. I then drove down to the corner of Allen and got gas for $1.07, then down to the Quadrangle for Bookfest 99. They had tents set up on the Quad and hotdogs for sale for a dollar. Mrs. Boyer was at one of the Information booths and I told her I was on my way up to the Northampton Gay Pride Parade. She smiled and told me to have a good time.

So I headed up to Hamp, and then drove around looking for parking, but when I saw that parking was only a dime per hour in the municipal parking lot I said what the hell and pulled in behind the Roundhouse. I then walked across to take a leak at the Peter Pan station before heading to the nearby gay merchandise shop where I bought some buttons. At Thornes market I got some posters and asked people if there was a Pride information booth. I was told it was up by the Unitarian Church.

So I went to the church by City Hall and down in the basement they were serving a pancake breakfast for $4. It was disappointing, the pancakes were about the size of a cookie, although they did come with strawberries and whipped cream. I ate and then departed, grabbing their Pride poster from their doorway. I was wearing jeans with black and blue hankies hanging out of my back pockets, an orange bandana, purple t-shirt and my leather collar plus padlock.

I decided to walk up to the Forbes Library. It's lovely and so tasteful how the Forbes has been done over, but lots of shelving has been removed and a lot of the old books are gone. The Circulation and Reference desks are larger. The Sylvester Judd Manuscripts are gone from what was the main Reading Room, so I asked Joanne McGee at the Reference Desk and she said the manuscripts are still on the premises. I asked her for one of their rainbow Pride posters, but she wouldn't let me have it so I had to settle for the one I swiped from the Unitarians.

Next stop was the Neilson Library at Smith, where Mansell is still on the shelves in the catalog room. I got some posters off the bulletin boards in the stairwells, including a Mount Holyoke theater poster from last summer. From there I headed back downtown where the parade was assembling alongside City Hall. The Union-News had someone passing out little flyers encouraging subscriptions that were titled Celebrating Together. I took some pictures, including one of a big, black guy in a green wig and another of a nearly nude man wearing butterfly wings.

I decided I would march with the Greater Springfield LGBT Youth Group, led by Erica Tucker and Holly Richardson. We shouted, "We're here! We're queer! Get used to it!" and also chanted, "Two, four, six eight! How do you know your kids are straight?"

 


Directly behind us were a group of male and female Congregational clergy persons, all in Roman collars. There was a delegation from Springfield College of good looking guys with pink triangles on their grey sweatshirts. Mt. Holyoke also sent a delegation. I saw some people from Friends, including one guy in his thirties who roller-bladed all the way. It was a long parade. I didn't see a lot of people in leather, except for a few lesbians. I chatted with one, who told me there is a new lesbian bar opening in Indian Orchard at 186 Main called The Rainbow Connection.

When we approached the fairgrounds I bid my young hosts farewell. Inside the fairgrounds were over 40 booths selling merchandise and services. They had tasty looking shiskabobs, but I never eat fair food. I saw people selling a new woman's magazine that looks better than the old Women Unlimited. I started to feel old and tired from all my marching and walking around, so I headed back downtown. When I passed the antique shop by the post office I saw a marbletop table with fancy woodwork for $290. Left Northampton at 2:10pm.

It was a really nice day and a lot of people came out for fun. The Northampton Pride Parade is special in that it is participatory, the people on the sidelines watching the parade are as lively as the people marching in it. Queers have found a way to maximize their fun free of Puritanical inhibitions.

May 2, 1999


Another lovely day.

Hawthorne Services is located at 93 Main Street in Chicopee. Senior Selections is on Plainfield Road in Hawley, Massachusetts. Thunderstorm Air Purification is run by Mike Lewenczuk in Belchertown. Jack Hess had a least 6,000 Springfield postcards.

First thing this morning I took a bag of stuff over to Eamon and let him see the uniform I wore to the Pride Parade yesterday, which included my buttons such as a Yippie marijuana leaf in a red star, Jesse Jackson's face (I see he has secured the release of three American prisoners in Yugoslavia, good for him), my enormous Goldwater button, a peace button and Silber for Governor. Eamon liked it, or so he claimed. Next door his neighbor was doing some gardening, he has a lot of tattoos.

From Eamon's I drove over to Fred Whitney's and left off material with his grandson and Mrs. Whitney, both were very friendly. Then to Paul Caron's 13th Annual fundraising breakfast at St. Anthony's Social Hall on Island Pond Road. Bill Dill was running the affair, which cost $10. I counted 178 in attendance, virtually all white and mostly elderly. I saw Righty Keough and Chris Asselin chatting so I walked up and asked them what they thought about gay rights and legalizing marijuana. They sidestepped my question on gay rights, but both said they opposed legal weed. Keough broke into a big smile of approval when at one point I mentioned Eamon.

Jose Tosado was there, along with Angelo Puppolo, Nick Fyntrilakis and Dan Kelly. Caron's wife Pamela and son Matthew were also present. Bill Foley and Dom Sarno arrived late. Armand Caputo sat with me, he said his favorite mayor was Ted Dimauro and that his nickname for Richard Neal is "Tricky Dick." Armand also said he wants ward representation and term limits. I told him we have nothing to disagree about. 

Caron's speech focused on family values bullshit and his Catholicism, but nothing about what he intends to do legislatively if he is re-elected. At one point he observed that "once you have kids, it changes your whole perspective." And so it went. I found his dwelling on family values to be sentimental Catholic drivel.

I have now attended two of Caron's annual breakfasts. Both times the food was good, the company gracious and congenial and overall a pleasant Sunday morning. St. Anthony's is a wonderful place, several people who go there are among my friends. 

Last year Caron had as a guest speaker Sen. Stan Rosenberg, and as a liberal Republican I especially enjoyed the opportunity to hear him. While I am personally proud to be represented by Brian Lees, I have respect for Senator Rosenberg, as indeed I do for any intelligent person who can offer reasoned discussion of how I should refine my opinions.

From there I paused briefly at the Senior Fair at the Jewish Community Center. I had a nice chat with Michelle J. Feinstein of Cohen-Rosenthal, who remembered me from WNEC '84. After that I drove downtown and sat in the back at the Choir Festival at First Church. It was very good. When one all black chorus performed, only about half the congregation rose in ovation with the other half remaining stubbornly seated. As I left, I noticed and then fell in love with a marsh painting by Michael Graves of Millbury, which reminded me of the view out the window of the little cottage we once rented in Brookfield.

I got home at 6pm, where I cooked up a Weight Watcher's Spicy Szeuhuan Style Veggies and Chicken Dinner. Fred Whitney called and thanked me for the stuff I left for him, I told him I may be in this week's Valley Advocate. He told me he is having trouble settling his mother's estate and has had to hire a lawyer. I told him I am looking for a job but not very hard.

May 3, 1999

Breezy and lightly raining.

I am reading Better Times Than These (1978) a Vietnam war novel written by Winston Groom, the author of Forrest Gump. It is well written and I am carefully noting the imagery and details of Army life. My parents shielded me from a great deal that was good. The reality is that I am ashamed that I did not serve in Vietnam along with the youth of my generation. I am ashamed that they served, some coming back in body bags, while I did nothing.

Dow closed today at 11,014.69. A lot of investors must be drunk. TV22 did a segment on the Quadrangle Director Heather Haskell. Short, chubby, she said her first interest was sociology. She claimed that 385,000 people visited the Quadrangle last year. Art historian Charles Hayward then talked about oriental rugs and noted how our cloisonne collection is the largest in the country. The engineer's boots I have been wearing has the label Walker Shoes in them.

April was dry, not really any April showers. Violets and buttercups are in bloom. Wanted to take a picture of Sweet Pea and Honey Pot with the tulips, but the sun never came out all day. Dined late afternoon at the Allen Street McDonald's on a two for one Big Mac special with a small side of fries. I think those were the first fries I've had since Mother passed on. I noticed the Reminder being delivered as I drove out today, but it was not here when I checked later.

I went to the Temple Beth El on Dickinson Street to hear Rabbi Harold Kushner, the author of When Bad Things Happen to Good People. I've been to the Temple before, but not in the sanctuary, which seems both Unitarian and Methodist. It is also an Akron-style worship space. As I entered I took off by orange bandana and put on a black yarmulke. The lecture was wonderful, the core of it being that nobody's perfect and we have to forgive even Hitler because "failure to forgive makes a monster out of us and we must never permit others to make us monsters."

At the end we went into the Fellowship Hall, which had round tables covered with absolutely delicious chocolate pastries. There were brownies and chocolate cakes that were moist, textured and flavorful. I had two and a half cups of coffee. I spoke to a TV40 cameraman who was wearing a leather jacket and told him they have too much sports programming. I suggested they should broadcast game shows based on subjects like Math and Latin. The guy politely responded that getting mass viewership is what TV is all about and sports shows draw much bigger audiences than educational programming. When I left, I thanked the physician who ran the thing and told him it was indeed a wonderful lecture. Home at 9:30pm

A woman called, saying she wants to subscribe to Media One. I said this is PBS and told her to get lost. Called Aunt Maria and she was friendly. Eamon called and at one point characterized Frankie Keough as "a legitimate bastard" because he was born out of wedlock and adopted by the Keough family out of an orphanage. Unknown called while I was napping.

May 4, 1999

Overcast but not quite rainy out.

Enormous tornadoes hit Oklahoma and Kansas overnight with 50 dead. Who needs war? Who needs more people? More people, more sinning, more suffering. Mother was so thrifty she used paper towels, folded and stapled on one end, for years as sanitary pads and continued to use them well into her final illness.

The story is that Kraft has turned his back on Connecticut and will stay in Massachusetts. On TV this morning we had Steve Root wearing a grey suit saying he is "looking for ways to package local attractions to Patriots games." Brattleboro,, Vermont is offering a $1,000 reward for identifying who gave their school a bomb threat on Monday. Security Engineering Inc. is located at 1686 Riverdale Street in West Springfield. Patty's Antiques and Treasures is located at 522 Main Street in Indian Orchard. People's Bank was founded in 1842 as Bridgeport Savings Bank in Bridgeport, Connecticut. Marilyn D. Feldman lives on Turner Road in Wellesley, Massachusetts.

The Hartford Courant, which just this month did a spoof of the Hartford Courant titled, "Hartford not so Current" will now be sold to the Courant, along with four other weekly papers including the Valley Advocate.

Dined on Mary's Kitchen hash and two eggs. Mail was here at 12:30pm. I called South Church and their tag sale is Thursday and Friday. Talked to Nader the Hatter and invited him to supper at the Buffet in West Springfield. He agreed and told me he wants to relocate to Florida. At one point Nader proclaimed, "Life is theater!"

Eamon called and complained about a flattering story on Dr. Negroni that appeared on TV22. Eamon said he called Mark Wiernacz at the station and questioned Negroni's claim that the drop-out rate for Commerce was only 19%. Eamon told Mark how he called the State Department of Education and spoke with Paula Girard, who said the number of entering freshmen in 1994 was 1983. Only 985 graduated in 1997, meaning that 49.7% had dropped out. When Eamon told Wiernacz about this, he said he would try to work the numbers into a future story, but seemed so vague about it that Eamon thinks they will ignore it.

Eamon said he also spoke with former Superintendent Tom Donahue today, who told him an interesting anecdote. Donahue was a friend of the late City Councilor Vincent Dimonaco. One day soon after Dr. Negroni was hired, he gave a presentation to the City Council, School Committee and others. Donahue and Dimonaco sat and listened while Negroni went on and on about how he was going to make Springfield the best school district in the state. At a reception afterwards, Negroni came up to them and asked what they thought of his speech. Vinnie replied, "I think you're full of shit." Negroni's jaw dropped as he silently turned and walked away.

May 5, 1999

Another damp day. 

Surviving on chaos is the answer.

Last night I had severe pain in my right ear. Very first thing this morning I gave my hair a third dyeing in purple. The color is now very bright. Dined on two hot dogs and a grapefruit in the evening, had a McDonald's quarter-pounder with cheese and fries at noon. Finished up my box of Wheaties this morning. I went out and dug up dandelions all over my lawn. Put in four hours going through Mother's old pocketbooks.

I drove out at 11am or so and made copies at CopyCat. I looked at Louis & Clark but no Advocates. While there I bought four Mother's Day cards. I drove over to the Goodwill, where I noticed that their new sidewalk has many imperfections. Inside, I found an immense pile of Valley Advocates and saw Turner's lovely article about me inside. The blonde lady who runs the place was much friendlier than usual and congratulated me on the article. 

The photo accompanying the article about me shows me in my collar and leathers beneath an engraving of John Wesley, a photo of Caesar Thompson (the violinist who taught Maurice Freedman, who was my violin teacher and whose estate I helped to settle) and a service sign the Johnson's Bookstore people gave me when they closed up. 

There were no Advocates at the liquor store in the Acres, but a big pile at the pizza shop next to Walgreens. The liquor store gave me a quote of 20% off on a case of Harvey's Bristol Creme. There were none at the laundromat, but a big pile at Newsstand. There were none at Angelo's, where I bought a grapefruit off the discount table.

Driving by the intersection of White and Sumner, I saw in the window of the Antiques Boutique just my sort of marble top table. I went in and the price was $295. Too much. I tried to talk Dorothea Radziki into lowering her price, but she would not budge. On the way home I paused at the liquor store across from Duggan and they only offered me a 10% discount for a case, or about $175. Home at 1pm, the mail was already here.

Modern Postcard Company called and said my new postcard shipped Monday. Martello of Hein called and said they're ready to send my new book Coke and Verse to the printer. I told him I wanted 20 copies for myself. I called Father Joyce at Our Lady of Hope rectory and told him about seeing at Forest Park Antiques some sketches of their original chapel selling for $60. He said I should talk to the pastor, so I asked him to pass the information on to the pastor for me, and he said he would. Margaret McDonald of 583-6335 called saying, "I'd like to make a reservation for May 19th at 1pm." I asked her what legal issues she wanted to discuss, copyright, trademarks or patents? "Oh sorry," she replied, "I thought I was talking to someone at Storrowtown."

Called Aunt Maria and told her about the article about me, but she showed no interest and instead demanded, "When are you going to do something for me?" Tom Devine called to congratulate me on my piece in the Valley Advocate. I thanked him and gave Tom all the latest gossip. We spoke from 9:03 to 9:57pm.

Eamon called and said he wants to donate his papers to Amherst College. He said he has letters from Peter J. Grace, Cardinal Cushing, Fulton J. Sheehan and many others. Eamon had not read the Advocate piece on me, so I read it to him. He liked it.

Then Eamon told me that today he got a photocopy of a booklet from the Department of Education on statewide truancy rates, but when he turned to the pages that were supposed to have the Springfield statistics, every page was missing! So Eamon called the Department, and it turns out the Springfield stats are missing from the original booklet as well. Someone had torn them out!

Eamon was shocked by how unconcerned they seemed to be about the missing pages. He told them how he had worked for the Department of Education for 30 years in Adult Education, Curriculum Development and Research and Auditing, and how in his day the discovery of the destruction of important data would be a matter of grave concern. She replied that they would look into it and promised to contact him if they came up with anything, but Eamon says he expects never to hear from them.

An Article That Appeared in the Valley Advocate by Maureen Turner
 


There is no way to capture J. Wesley Miller in one paragraph. He is an attorney who specializes in Art Law. He is a legal antiquarian, a classicist. a bibliographer, an art collector. He's a devout diarist and a mad collector and cataloger of, among other things, "street literature" - the flyers and posters most of us walk past or trample upon but that he believes record a vital part of our social history.

He's a self-described "extremely liberal Republican" (socially progressive, fiscally conservative) who often sports an orange schmatte on his head and an orange workman's jumpsuit in keeping with his plea to sympathizers to "wear orange (preferably a jumpsuit) in solidarity with all the folks in prison for doing drugs." He is a social critic, he explains, who takes his cue not from the Roman satirist Juvenal, who "sees the corruption of the empire and cuts out with bitter indignation" - Miller assigns that role to his friend and fellow commentator on city affairs Eamon O'Sullivan - but from the poet Horace. "Horace is genial, he leans back, he smiles, he tickles people with his feather. That's what I am. I'm Horace."

What are the best and worst things you've seen happen to Springfield?

When I was growing up, Springfield was pretty confident about itself as a place that was the best in every way. We really did have a wonderful situation at the Quadrangle. Miss Rose, who was the Rice Hall librarian, had an immense number of bookcases constructed to make room for lots more books. Those bookcases were ripped out within the last decade, and the books were thrown out. The worst thing to happen to Springfield in my lifetime has been the prettying up of the Quad. I think there's no doubt that the Quad is a prettier place today than it has ever been. But it has been thinned and it has been dumbed down.

Your own paper some years back quoted the New York Times architecture critic as saying Springfield was "banal in the extreme" with its modern cement structures and urban canyons. The courthouse is the most hideous county courthouse in the state by everyone's agreement. Another nail in the coffin was the elevation of the expressway rather than the depression of it, cutting the riverfront off from the city. Sit in the dining room at Peter Picknelly's Sheraton and look out the window and all you see is expressway.

The other worst thing that happened to Springfield, really the big domino of our present situation, was the collapse of Monarch Capital Corporation, which may be blamed on the greed of its stockholders, officers and directors, who never really realized that their product couldn't be patented and who were just not cautious enough. Concomitantly, probably the best thing Springfield has is Mass Mutual, because it's all we have left.

Who are the people doing the best, and the worst, for Springfield?

Miss Michaelann Bewsee is one of the finest people in Springfield, and her work with Arise for Social Justice is very important. Belle-Rita Novak, over at the X, is one of the finest people in this city. Eamon O'Sullivan, even though he comes across as being tactless and perhaps a racist, is an impeccably fine Irish gentleman.

My attitude toward Mayor Mike Albano has mellowed. I think that Albano has always been in a difficult spot. He has to make the best out of a mess, and he has to look enthusiastic. He has, in the situation he's been in, done a good job. Mr. Albano came in saying he was going to bring in a lot of new blood, but basically Albano has been working with the same old team. There is a group of people that, whenever one organization dissolves, they play musical chairs, and all the people that had $55,000 a year jobs in the old place wind up with $65,000 jobs in the new place. They have been good at keeping jobs for their people, but they've not been good at producing results.

I think that cleaning out the riverfront for the Basketball Hall of Fame was a good idea, to get rid of that older, and very motley, shabby building stock. But do I believe for one second that the Hall of Fame will bring all the tourists they're predicting or that it will bring in all the revenue? No, I don't. I do believe that the neighborhood will be tidied up, and that's good.

Superintendent Peter Negroni took over a school system which had been rotting under the previous administration. Mr. Negroni on the one hand has done a splendid job of bringing in new ideas which are necessary to shock the place into modernity. At the same time, I don't think he deserves the highest superintendent pay in the state. Eamon O'Sullivan is absolutely correct that there's too high a dropout rate, too low an attendance rate and the bottom line on student performance is lousy.

Springfield Newspapers head David Starr is going to say that he's produced thousands of dollars for WFCR and Channel 57 and the libraries and all these other things. But in addition to doing this, he has been politically repressive and we have a repressive media regime. I remember seeing Mr. Starr going to dinner with the mayor and other politicians. Sociology 101: With whom do these people interact? The question is to what extent the new publisher Larry McDermott is going to be an improvement.

I would like to see Francis Gagnon (chairwoman of the city's Historical Commission and of the Libraries and Museums Association) depart from the scene. She's got her Pynchon Medal, now I would like to see her just leave. Mrs. Gagnon has had her impact for good or ill, and it is time for her to depart.

The City Council, these people have been in office for years and years. We've seen what they can do. They should go. Mr. Albano started out looking for new people. He should find them. The people that have been in power here have been around too long.

May 6, 1999


Overcast, gas at Breckwood Sunoco is up from $1.07 to $1.08.

How did I get in the Advocate? Years ago, when the Valley Advocate was young (1977) they did a lengthy feature on me and my street literature collection. Over the years they have published half a dozen letters from me and used me as a consultant on several articles. 

For over a decade I kept submitting the names of Bill Putnam, Walter English, Irving Cohn and the Valley Advocate for Pynchon Awards, which are our valley's highest honor. Of course being recommended by me was the kiss of death for any chance they had of receiving it, since the award has fallen under the control of a clique at the Springfield Newspapers

I have an extensive collection of Springfield related medals and tokens, three of which are Pynchon medallions that were abandoned by the families of their late recipients and sold to me. I decided to send one of them to the Advocate, telling them that despite their courageous, singular and steadfast defense of the free press in our valley, my second hand Pynchon Award was the only one they were ever likely to receive. I suspect that in gratitude for that gesture, they decided to do that very nice article about me. 

Up at 6am, departed at 7:30am to go to the South Church tag sale. Before I set out I found that my new postcards of the church in Bethel had come. I am delighted with the results, later I wrote them a note telling them that they had exceeded my expectations. The back reads:

Bethel, Vermont - Miller Memorial United Methodist Church (1905) named after its longtime pastor J. Wesley Miller, is a a miniature Akron-style structure erected during Bethel's white granite boom days. It contains the earliest Hilbourne L. Roosevelt organ still in use.

First I went to Louis & Clark, where there were still no Advocates. I arrived at the tag sale at 8:10 and got in line behind three black ladies and Melissa McIntosh. Behind me was a woman around 40 who is taking a course on plays, featuring no Shakespeare, no Chaucer, just modern stuff. The Koziols were there and the old man congratulated me on the piece in the Valley Advocate. He said he can get along with Republicans as long as they are liberal. The sale overall was disappointing, but of course there is always something. The Treasure Room had no real treasures in it and the collection of books was thin, but I got some biblical books in Greek and a couple of postcards.

Nader the Hatter met me there as planned for our lunch at the Buffett. We left the sale at 10:14am. Nader and I dined in a leisurely way at the Buffett, he gave me the Boston Globe Guide to Cambridge - a very nice paperback - for taking him to lunch. Nader also gave me an AT&T thermometer paperweight. He said he is driving his father's grey Oldsmobile because his own car broke down. Nader told me he is 53 and feels he has 'a spiritual side" to his nature. At one point he remarked that "almost all antique dealers are gay."

On the way back, I saw that Stained Glass Resources is working on the window in front of Alden Baptist Church. Paused at Mrs. Staniski's and found her gardening out front looking wilted in the heat. I told her she should quit working for the day and get some rest. I then bought some bananas at Angelo's. From there I took a swing through the Acres to get fish and chips at Big Y and some more Advocates. This afternoon I finally photographed Sweet Pea and Honey Pot with the pansies and tulips.

May 7, 1999


Overcast, rained in the morning.

I have three identical typewriters, one for correspondence, one for my diary and one for composing memos.

I almost didn't go to Riverside, but I figured with the rain nobody would be there, so I went. But first I went to the Faith Church sale and got a few items. Things were thinner than previously. I bought a Revere-like brass bowl, a tiny Indian vase, several puzzles and assorted other little things. I always tell them to keep the change because it's a charity. Edward A. Koziel of Chicopee was there, he again praised my article and said I was "fair with everybody." I told him I was especially flattered he felt that way.

With raspberry glasses on, I set out for Riverside Park and got there about 11:30. I hadn't been there since Mother and Father took George, Martie, Steve and Dianne from Monarch in the 1950's. We walked around and rode the merry-go-round and that was about it. Today Riverside is fabulous, given a choice between a year's pass to the Basketball Hall of Fame and a weekend pass to Riverside, I'd take Riverside. This is the year to buy a season pass because when they finish the renovations they will probably charge a lot more.

There were a lot of school buses lined up as today was Physics Day at the park. I was in uniform, laced boots with worn jeans, chain belt, black t-shirt, biker jacket and pink triangle earrings. I was told the season ticket office didn't open until noon, so I walked down the main street, with certain themes for each section. An enormous water ride is almost completed. Some things were open, some not, I was told more things open as the day goes on. They also said that once school lets out they will open up earlier. Eamon says one of his in--laws is an electrician who told him they have spent millions on electrical work.

So I got the lay of the place, then got in line to get a season pass at ten of noon. The super-straight guy in a topcoat in front of me kept eyeing me suspiciously, but I had a pleasant conversation with the young fellow behind me. I was offered a season parking ticket for $20 so I took that. My season pass had only a small black and white photo of me, which made it hard to appreciate my purple Apache haircut. I used my queer pseudonym Queerboy Fag Sissypansy on the pass.

I then resumed walking around. I spent a few minutes in the video game arcade watching people play. Walked down the path to the picnic grove and sat for awhile. Very restful. At one point a tall young fellow asked where I got my boots. Just before it was time to depart (I was getting tuckered out by all the walking) three high school girls asked if I would pose for a picture with them. I cheerfully consented and they snapped a single picture. On the way out I bought copies of each of Riverside's postcards at 50 cents each. As I drove out I was behind a bus from Danbury, Connecticut.

On the way back, I picked up some more Advocates in the Acres and got a canned ham and potato chips at Big Y. When I got home I called Aunt Maria, who said she got my postcard and thought it was "nice." I asked if there was anything I could help her with but she said she doesn't want me coming over unless I change my "eccentric attire." I was surprised to then get a call from Edith Michaud. She said she thinks Aunt Maria has "mellowed down a bit" but told me how the other day she fount Aunt Maria asleep in a chair with a pile of money on her lap. She shook my Aunt awake and was immediately accused of trying to steal the money, to which Edith replied that if the wanted to steal "there wouldn't be a dollar left."

May 8, 1999

Michele Rogers Beck is Mrs. United States for 1998-99. Gordon Alexander is Tortus-Tek's Director of Operations in Holyoke. Lisa A. Cignoli is the Marketing Manager for the City of Springfield.

The lilacs are coming out and the buttercups are in bloom. This evening I should have gone out to Indian Orchard for the artist's Open House but I chose to go downtown instead. There was a story on the news about a demonstration today at Court Square for women in prison for drug use. I wanted to get any literature lying around from that, so I drove downtown. On the way, I paused at a tag sale at 50 Jeffrey but there was slim pickings. The family said they are moving to San Diego.

I swung by the Eastfield Mall, where the Shriner's were having a Clownarama. The back of Eastfield is all dug up to expand parking by the Cinemas. There was a good crowd and at one point one of the onlookers came up to me, thinking that with my purple mohawk I was one of the clowns! The clowns juggled and pulled pranks on the kids. They marched in a parade, but there should have been a band. I got a laugh from the crowd by loudly declaring that it was nice to see the Democratic City Committee all in one place. A great event for kids and everybody is a kid.

From the Clownarama I went directly downtown, where there must have been something going on at Symphony Hall, as it was hard to find a place to park. I ended up parked on Worthington Street by the Kaos Club. Kaos appeared to be empty, it was dark inside and the doors were locked. I walked around Court Square, but saw little evidence of the demonstration. I did see a bumpersticker reading RAGE AGAINST THE MACHINE. I decided I would walk back to Worthington and do a little tour of the downtown bars starting at 8pm.

The Civic Pub on Court Square had only five patrons.

Kokomos was closed although the lights were on.

MardiGras has a $3 cover and a good, lively crowd.

David's was dead, the bartender said they "come to life" around 11:30pm.

The Pub had 13 patrons, an older crowd, basement not yet open.

Silvio's on Worthington had three at the bar and two at a table.

Viper's Nest, the piercing place, was supposed to open May 5th, but inside I could see only a few pieces of furniture and a sign saying "Coming Soon" but not saying how soon.

A facade is being erected for Westbank, but so far only the metalwork is up.

The TicToc had fourteen guests around the bar, two cops walked in as I was leaving.

Caffeine's Cigar Room was open, with the proprietor sitting in an easy chair waiting for customers.

Caffeine's Restaurant is a nice place with a porch on Duryea Park, which no longer has any park benches. At 8:45pm there were 15 in the main room and about 20 on the porch.

The Hot Club on Stearns Square was not hot, only a few people at the bar.

Fat Cat on Worthington had about 20 middle-aged men around the bar.

Naismith's had eleven seated around the bar.

Theodore's had a $3 cover with over 30 people present but still not too crowded. It has ambiance, more my kind of place than any of the other joints.

Pizzeria Uno had a guitar player playing for a mostly young crowd of about 40 people.

Houlihan's had only five customers being served by three bartenders. A $3 cover after 10pm.

The Fort was jammed with good looking, respectable people.

Just Friends had 22 patrons, including two women and one black. They have a bulletin board with news for the gay community. I think they are the best gay bar in the city, but David's won the Valley Advocate award last year. I ordered a beer and drank half of it. As I was going to my car two black men asked for a ride to West Springfield because they missed the bus. I said I was sorry but I couldn't help them. Home at 9:36pm.

May 9, 1999

Overcast, started to rain at 11:52am.

I have set many things to do that each day I want to make real progress towards achieving. I am willing to wait and see with a lot of things, undecided is often the correct answer.

The Pope is in Romania for the first time since 1054. People are complaining about a two-week old Blunt Park user fee which is funding better security and park improvements. A patron on camera remarked, "There's nothing to do here worth paying for." How true. Richard M. Gaberman practices law at 32 Hampden Street in Springfield. The radio played Mozart's Paris Symphony today.

Pulled five large stems of rhubarb. One year we had lovely daisies but Mother stomped them all out. My lawn is getting shaggy, but I always let it get a good start in the spring. It needs attention, but the Lord will provide. I have spent the day writing Mother's final condolence communications. Everyone got a postcard and a copy of my Valley Advocate article. I have sent a great many people my Advocate article and it will be interesting to see how many people like it and how many are turned off and scared away. I also typed a thank you letter to Maureen Turner to mail at Louis & Clark.

I drove out at 10am. While I was making copies at Louis & Clark I saw Jackie Bradway and asked about her plants. At Kappy's they had a petition opposing the baseball stadium at Northgate Plaza and I signed it. They are going to present the petitions from all over Springfield to the City Council in May. I stopped by the Evangelical Covenant Church for their tag sale and bought ten black milk crates for $7.

Swung by Trinity Church, where I avoided the church office and knocked on Mrs. Goad's door. She answered and I handed her a bag of reading material that included my new postcard. Then to the Goodwill where there was nothing special and I bought nothing.

Next I went downtown and parked in front of the telephone building on the corner of Chestnut and Edwards and left a red envelope for Hernala. Then up to 13 Monarch Place and left an envelope at Cohen/Rosenthal. Tony Cignoli has an office on the same floor. Then I dropped off something at Just Friends, got a deli-baloney sandwich at Subway for lunch and headed home.

Cooked myself a Swanson Roast Beef Dinner for supper. I also had some vanilla tapioca pudding. Spoke with Lynn at Punderson and the burner cleaner will come tomorrow. Called Aunt Maria. She was civil, says she may finally be getting over the shock of Mother's death.

Eamon called and he likes my new postcard. I told him he should make a postcard of his house and use them to send people short messages. Eamon objected to me using the term "racist" in regards to him in my Advocate interview. He pointed out that he is a donor to the Southern Poverty Law Center. He also said he discussed his displeasure with Tom Vannah. I told him that although he sometimes comes across as racist, I also consider him to be an impeccably fine gentleman. By the end of our talk he told me he is not mad.

May 11, 1999

Gas at Pride is $1.07 per gallon.

Anita Bryant was formerly high priestess of Florida orange juice. She came out against homosexuality and in due course suffered a deserved decline. On the back of the May Reader's Digest, a woman in a biker jacket is shown drinking a glass of Tropicana Pure Premium Orange Juice. Not all bike jacket wearers are queer, certainly not, but the ambiguity is a good slap in Anita's face. A proverb Mother used to utter from Gram Wilson: "If the dog hadn't stopped to take a shit, he'd have caught the fox."

Men working on the light poles in front of neighbors Stevens and Nichols. My heat has been turned off for several days now. WFCR had the Beethoven Violin Concerto on. A bee, a big one, came into the dining room and I had to dispatch him with bug spray. Lately I saw a chipmunk scurrying out from the large barrel in the garage, so maybe I have a family on the premises. I hope so.

Left here something after 9am. At Louis & Clark I mailed a thank you to Joe and Shirley Lucas and payment to Joe Luttrell. Pride in the Acres has a new nickle copying machine. The black male manager with an ornately braided hair-do showed me how to use it. Then to the Goodwill, where I got a nice, little cloisonne dish for a dollar. Patty said she had just put it in the case. I got 2 for 1 breakfast bagels at McDonald's on Allen with a coupon I got in the Sunday paper.

Arrived at the Eastfield Mall at 10am after stopping at Kappy's to get some more Valley Advocates. I am snitching Advocates everywhere to have a supply of copies I can use to make tearsheets. I was barely inside the Mall door for the Senior Health Fair when red-headed Jean Ferrars of WMAS most cordially greeted me, but I did not see Monique Bovat. Jean told me she used to work for the Valley Advocate and was glad they did a story on me. The fair itself was dull, however, aside from some material I got from the Tobacco Control Program and Providence Place at Ingleside. Left Eastfield at 10:48am.

The mail was here when I got home. Valley Motorsports on King Street in Northampton sent Blanche Miller a flyer. Jack Egan, a friendly, young fellow from Punderson, arrived at 2:45pm. He said he has been in the oil burner business for 12 years. He cleaned up after himself as well or better than anyone else has ever done. Declined refreshment, good guy, left at 3:34pm.

For supper I devoured another Weight Watchers entree. Spoke to Sampson's about their ad in the Reminder saying, "It's no secret who owns our funeral home." I told them that people know who owns them but not their prices! Hung up on me. Next I spoke to John Leno and then Kerri Anderson at Bank of Boston, asking why they offer free admission to the Quad to credit card holders, but not to CD owners. She will get back to me. Called Aunt Maria and she has been more chipper lately. Said Ruth got her mailing.

On TV22 this evening Lynn Barry was in Orlando, Florida, where Universal Studios is opening Seussland near Disneyland. They showed colorful statues and rides related to Dr. Seuss characters, including a carousel. How can Springfield compete with that? Audrey Geisel was shown in attendance. As I have said before, Springfield's statues will be dead upon unveiling.

May 13, 1999

Sunny day.

In the Valley Advocate there is a letter from a R. Leppington that is critical of the Northampton gay pride parade: "There's no sense that gays march on the town in a gesture of pride or defiance anymore." I thought the same thing, they marched all the gays out of town to the fairgrounds. I got an offer from the Springfield Newspapers offering The Republican and Union-News for 28 weeks at $2.50 per week instead of paying the regular $4.50 per week price.

On the news they said the Armory School is to be demolished and with land deeded by Our Lady of Hope, a new school called the Edward P. Boland Learning Center will go up. The band Schwa is playing at the Tic-Toc Lounge on Worthington Street on the 28th, promising "blues, funk, reggae and jazz with stylish grooves." The Springfield Symphony is having its anniversary concert this Saturday. Heritage Woods Respite Care is located on Main Street in Agawam. Brick work on the east wing of the Evangelical Covenant Sanctuary started a couple of days ago.

I drove out with a big bag of magazines and took them over to Mr. Cohn. He said he just had a cataract operation and can only see out of one eye, but otherwise is in excellent health. From the Cohn's I went to the Goodwill, where I left Father's coats that were hanging in the garage. Next I had a chicken sandwich plus a small order of fries for $2.04 at the Allen Street McDonald's, where they are fixing the sidewalk leading to the side entryway. I found the first of this week's new Advocate in a tiny pile in the entrance to Leone's. It has a big article on the Northgate stadium proposal by Mo Turner, who didn't mention the topic when she interviewed me.

This day I read the Hein proofs. They reset the type and I corrected many errors, but now new errors have been introduced so I corrected it again. Today I dined on Maypo and a Budget Gourmet Lasagna Alfredo with Broccoli. I didn't see much broccoli. I also cooked up the lovely green beans I bought at Angelo's a few days ago. The electrical lineman were out front again. Jozephczyk gave me his old papers and congratulated me on my Advocate article.

Mail here today at 11:30am. Whitcomb High School never learns. They were repeatedly told that Father is dead, but he continues to get mail. Now Mother does too. I will notify them once again. Called Aunt Maria, she is still chipper but had no interest in talking. I called Councilor Ryan and left a message thanking him for defending Northgate. At Kappy's the other day I noticed there was a phone number (796-4924) at the bottom of their save Northgate petition. I decided to give the number a call, and got Mrs. Karen Powell, whom I recognized as an opponent of needle exchange. I introduced myself and we had a nice chat. She said she has heard of me before from her friend Maureen Turner.

I called Tom Devine and told him how the U.S. Postal Service is releasing a stamp in honor of Ayn Rand. He said he was already aware of it. Eamon called, and he has a new upstairs phone from Bloomingdale's, but its ring isn't as loud as his AT&T phone. He said he liked a letter to the paper by Richard Crossen on the insanity of our foreign policy. I was surprised when Eamon told me that Dennis Murphy is Albano's real campaign chairman, he claims the Boland's are only figureheads.

Eamon said he called Wayne Phaneuf at the paper and asked him why they haven't done anything on the high rates of truancy. He said Phaneuf hemmed and hawed and agreed that attendance at the Springfield schools is "lousy" and finally suggested they would bring it up in some future story. Eamon told me he also told Phaneuf about how off-duty cops are going door to door campaigning for Nick Fyntrilakis. Phaneuf said it was the first he'd heard of it.

May 14, 1999

Absolutely beautiful day. Lilies of the Valley are in. 
 
We see bad English in the press, we hear it on television and the internet is a cesspool of bad language. Talk is cheaper than ever. TV57 had a discussion of cluster bombing in Kosovo with Gen. Robert Gard, a real hard-nosed conservative who said the U.S. is "exasperating the situation and our strategy is wrong." 
 
The April New York Times Book Review has a picture of S. Rushdie on the cover with an earring in his right ear only. He, Elton John and me. Hmmm.  The fancy new office building for the legislature behind the Connecticut statehouse is disintegrating, even though it is only 11 years old. A studio apartment at Providence Place at Ingleside is about a thousand a month. 
 
Dark colors are in, WASP true blue is completely out. People talk about the way I dress - an orange suit, sometimes with a handcuff belt - is a form of performance art inspired by Jack Fritchers fine biography of Robert Mapplethorpe Assault with a Deadly Camera.  The biker jacket and various collars are simply part of my queer uniform. 

I have added bright purple jockey shorts supported by an athletic cup underneath them and black slacks to create what is called "a nice basket," a toned down codpiece that accentuates my groin. Doubtless many people consider this outfit obscene, but it is perfectly legal. One day at the corner of Mattoon and Chestnut I ran into a black fellow who said to me, "Hey man, I like your style," and we exchanged high fives. There is no disputing style, and if someone wants a "dark side of J. Wesley Miller" why shouldn't I deliver?

I am reading Bob Corbett's splendid new book The Cheater's Handbook - The Naughty Student's Bible. Worked in the basement and did a bit of gardening. Also worked on the final consolation letters for a couple hours. On television, they said the most popular item they serve in the Springfield public schools is pizza (maybe they serve too much of it). Someone assaulted a PVTA worker and a black gentleman who is her friend is offering a $200 reward to help catch the person who did it. I think that's great.

TV also said that it has been found that Jahn Foundry had many OSHA violations, though the owner says they have always been very concerned about safety (you bet, the safety of their investments). The air ducts hadn't been cleaned since 1979 and there was dirt in the machinery.  Sounds like a real hell hole, but no one who works there will say so if they want to keep their job.  

 The mail brought photocopies of Father's manuscript from Jeff Marshall at the University of Vermont. I also got a letter today from Maureen Turner saying my article has gotten good feedback "most recently from Tom Devine." Mo also said a critic of her stadium coverage called her "a anti-American pinko of the highest degree." She was vague about accepting my invitation to meet with her for shortcake and strawberries at Picknelly Plaza. 

After the mail came, I decided to take Aunt Maria a Swanson TV dinner and a pie. I found her sitting in her big chair in the living room, a sink full of dishes and George's room was a mess. She was friendly but didn't have anything she wanted to communicate. When I left I picked up a few dead branches off the lot and took a picture of her tulips. Then down to the fire station behind the Baptist Church where they were having a tag sale to benefit the Historical Society. I bought three books, a folding chair and a little bell for Sweet Pea and Honey Pot. 

I cooked up the green beans and potatoes and dined on them, plus grapefruit. Eamon called at 6pm and said Mayor Albano is going to endorse Nick Fytrilakis for state rep and the police union will do so as well. Dennis Murphy is Albano's campaign manager and was also Fyntrilakis' former boss. Eamon says it would have been better had Albano stayed neutral. 

May 15, 1999

An absolutely beautiful day, bridal wreath starting out. 

At Johnson's, the coin slot in the wall has been removed and several bricks now fill the spot. The last vestige of Johnson's Bookstore is gone for good. 

The For Sale sign is gone over to Yaeger's. Called Aunt Maria at 2:49pm. She was friendly enough, but had nothing to say other than she had been out riding with Ruth. Providence Place at Ingleside is managed by Sisters of Providence Health Care System

I began by driving out to Epiphany Church in Wilbraham. The Koziels were there, but considering the quality of the sale the turnout stank, with only about ten other customers besides myself. Young John Kosiel was examining a wooden music box while the old man told me he doesn't like to drive into the city. 

The sale had a lot of nice things with lots of books, art and some very nice furniture including a cute little rocking chair for only $8. I bought a soft fabric pumpkin, a little iron kettle with the date 1939 etched on it and some very nice coffee table books. I also bought an oval, gilt-framed glass painting of three chickadees, which I will add to the picture collection in my living room. 

Next I headed downtown and parked on Salem Street to attend the pancake breakfast and to look for posters outside the Democratic State Convention being held simultaneously at the Civic Center.  Parking on Salem Street was tight but I was able to find a spot. 

Soon after I arrived at the breakfast, Health Commissioner Helen Caulton approached me to sign nomination papers for her sister's campaign for City Council. Fred Whitney was there wearing a red apron and working the Western Mass Republicans booth. He congratulated me on my Advocate article, which he said he liked. Agawam Councilor Bob Magovern was also there. 

I walked around and thought there were fewer booths than in past years. The automobile exhibit was nice, displaying Picknelly's two Rolls and a reproduction of a Duyrea. There were National Guardsmen around. I got some free muffins and a cup of orange juice from the Massachusetts Career Development Institute booth. Petluck was also there, eating muffins. 

The last time I picked up after a Democratic Convention here there was litter all over. This year everything was cleaned up because even while the pancake breakfast was in progress there were men coming around taking full trash bags and replacing them with empty ones. Result: next to zero litter. All I got was a few things for Al Gore for President, Shannon O'Brien for Treasurer, Bill Bradley for President and Tom Reilly for Attorney General. 

I left for the Westfest Arts and Crafts Fair at 11:08am and arrived at Stanley Park at 11:40. The 18th Annual Westfest was a high-toned affair in an ideal setting and well attended. They had a juggler, a group of Peruvian flute players and other acts who provided first rate musical entertainment. I liked the South American music especially. 

Unfortunately, the merchandise offered was mostly lower end schlock. The only impressive items were a lovely carved Noah's Ark with 30 pairs of animals by Carl Peabody of Fiskdale, Ma. for $125 and a variety of wood carvings by a Chinaman named Chien Fei Chiang. The only thing I bought was two greeting cards from a dealer from Waterville, Maine. There should have been more dealers. They had refreshments and a youth art contest. It was a fine small city family affair such as Springfield would like to have but can't. 

On the way home from Stanley Park I stopped at Liberty Methodist Church coming up Carew. I have never seen so many people at Liberty. The entire side yard was full of tag sale booths. A fellow in farmer's overalls named Dale asked if I was the guy in the Valley Advocate. He said he had seen me at other tag sales. I gave him my card as I talked about how people should be free to accept responsibility for their use of drugs and he agreed. 

A lot of the stuff was junk but it was late in the day. I gave the ladies at the Liberty Church booth a contribution, saying they had nothing I wanted to buy but congratulating them on having such a nice sale. I arrived home at 1:30pm just as Mr. and Mrs. Penniman were going by. I shook hands with him but he neither spoke nor smiled. I told her how good the Wilbraham sale was. 

The mail brought a letter from Roberta Dean saying she liked my postcards. Dined on beans and hot dogs.   

May 17, 1999

Another beautiful day. Warm outside but cool inside the house. 

Got up bright and early today and arrived at Aunt Maria's at 6am. I found the garage door open, so I pushed the button and closed it. The lawn was freshly mowed and all the lights were on in the house. I left quietly without being noticed. My early morning trip to Aunt Maria's was very unusual but instructive. 

On my way back I stopped at the Breckwood Shops and got two of Devine's papers out of the trash. Then I headed to the McDonald's on Allen and used a coupon for a dollar off a bagel with a hash brown unit and orange juice. 

Next I mailed out more postcards for R. Dean at the Forest Park Post Office and bought a book of stamps with tropical flowers on them. They were all out of berry stamps. The Forest Park bound lane of Edwards Bridge is still under construction. I dumped some of the Democratic Convention literature I gathered on Mrs. Whitney at her back door. She is always very friendly, and asked if I had seen Fred on TV. When I said no, she told me they interviewed him at the pancake breakfast. 

Then through the Goodwill where they said they were going to start selling bandanas such as I wear in my hip pockets. She couldn't possibly know what it means! While there I bought a picture book on San Francisco and a travel guide to Russia. At Cat's Paw I gave them a postcard of Miller Church. 

Arrived home at 11:15am. I warmed up a Swanson TV dinner and looked at my new books. A lawyer in Salem mistakenly called me looking for a Jacqueline Miller. Called Aunt Maria at 2:49 and although she said she had been in a deep sleep, she answered in good humor.  I believe her prior surliness was the result of melancholy over Mother and harassment by social workers. 

The lawn needs mowing. No Reminder today. I took all the card catalogs and books off the green chest in the corner that Father made years ago and I cleaned all around it and now I can say I am 98% finished with the cleaning of the basement, which I began just about a year ago while Mother was incapacitated with her broken hip. 

Since I was up since 5:30am I took an hour nap and then set out for downtown around 4:30. I parked on Salem and then walked down the hill. The awning on the front of Johnson's is down and the scaffolding is still up in front of the future Westfield Bank

When I got to City Hall, I found about 60 labor unioners picketing in favor of the baseball stadium. "Baseball is a Family Value" read one sign. They had a grill set up at one side and were serving burgers and beer. I was too late for the speakers (the event began at 4) but Mayor Albano was still around talking with the workers. 

From there I walked over to J.W. Miller Frames to ask Bill Myers, who also works as a conservator for the Quadrangle, if he would be interested in restoring an old oil painting for me. He said he is very busy now, but gave me his number so we could discuss it later. After that I just killed time sitting on a bench behind the Bank of Boston for awhile, watching people go by at the end of the work day. At 4:50 a crowd of secretaries from Cooley-Sharir came by.

I walked back to City Hall at 5:15 and the union guys and their grill was gone. I stood by the entrance as people started arriving and soon the Powells appeared with their picket signs. She is a little woman, friendly, and he was tall, thin and wearing jeans. 

The liquor store manager came over, he said he had 1,665 signatures and the Powells said they had collected 421 more. I was introduced to Dr. John Brown, who has an office at Northgate.  I asked if anyone was aware of Eamon's phone editorials and they all said yes. 

 We headed into the council chambers, where about 50 people had already gathered. I spotted a seat still available in the front row and found myself seated next to a bearded gentleman who turned out to be John Appleton, the newspaper reporter. The Powells were seated further back, and at one point I spotted them chatting with Maureen Turner. 

Many spoke at the public speakout, including Henry Thomas, who supports Albano on everything, it would appear. The union boss was asked if he lived in Springfield and evaded the question by saying that he represents union workers throughout the valley. A tall black man talked about "taking back our city" and waved this week's Advocate at the Councilors, which no doubt pleased Maureen. 

When I got up to speak, I said that throughout my life they have been trying and failing to revitalize downtown and a baseball stadium isn't going to do it either. Councilor Boyle had a smirk on his face as I spoke, but Councilor Santaniello appeared to be listening intently. I got about the same amount of applause as the other anti-stadium speakers got. 

I left right after I spoke. When I got back home, I dined on brussels sprouts and spaghetti.

May 19, 1999

 Overcast. Honeysuckle coming out, bridal wreath in full bloom. 

There is no substitute for victory. - General MacArthur

Today is the day the new Star Wars movie comes out, with people lining up at the theater since midnight and missing work. Being a Star Wars delinquent is in. MassMutual last night paid tribute to 500 students for being "the best and brightest" at their schools. The ceremony was held at City Hall with Mayor Albano and Peter Negroni the featured speakers. 

The street sweeper went down Birchland. The Reminder came late in the day. I dyed my hair again this morning and also a pair of jockey shorts to complete an all purple uniform to wear to the Gay Festival at Riverfront Park in June.  My WEAR ORANGE business cards are soliciting a low response.  

Pushed around the vac. Mowed the lawn. Mr. Cohn drove by and waved but didn't stop. Assembled the trash. Cooked a hamburg and spaghetti casserole in the oven. Took a bath. Did a load of laundry. Uncovered the air conditioners. Heard the Bartok Violin Concerto No. 2. I listen to WFCR all the time now. 

Last night at 11:07pm Dave Madsen said that 400,000 are expected to visit the Basketball Hall of Fame this year. But at noon I heard them say 500,000. I saw myself on TV40 during their stadium coverage,  they showed me sitting in the front row with my biker jacket, bandana and picket sign. Mail here at 11:28. I got a letter from Eugene Povirk of Southpaw Books that had an Ayn Rand stamp on the envelope. He said in his letter that ephemera from the 1960's is appreciating in value "rather quickly."

After writing some checks to pay the bills, I drove in the early afternoon to mail something to Maureen Turner and others at Breckwood. Then to Indian Orchard, but Patty was not in her antique shop. I stuck a note in her door saying, "If you are going to post hours, you should keep them!" I also dropped off my latest letter to Paul Caron at his office. 

At  5:15 I headed to the Albano fundraiser at the John Boyle O'Reilly in my orange uniform. When I got there, I saw that there were only four people in the banquet room. Soon a young, petite black woman appeared so I asked her if I would be allowed to stay if I paid $10. She said you'll have to ask that man, and pointed to someone whom I recognized as Anthony Ardolino. He smiled and said sure, so I proceeded to examine some of the art in the room. 

One wall was windows, while the inside wall had three expensive, signed and numbered prints of Ireland.  At the far end of the hall is a stage, maybe 15 feet wide, with a canvas backdrop painted with the image of a dirt road leading past a stone wall to a small, white cottage. The scene portrayed is somewhat desolate. 

I got a beer and sat in the very last chair of the last table next to the windows, where I had a clear view of what was going on in the entire room. So I sat sipping my brew as people came in, including Mayor Albano and his wife. He looked at me with a big smile and said of my orange suit, "I like your outfit." I gave him one of my orange business cards, telling him to save it because they will become collector's items. We shook hands as I wished him good luck and then he left to tour the tables greeting guests. 

Councilors Dan Kelly and Dom Sarno arrived. Brian Lees came around to each table, when he got to mine he waved and I waved back but we didn't talk. After he had toured every table, Sen Lees headed to the door, shaking Albano's hand as he left. 

Chris Asselin passed my table and gave me a little wave. Frankie Keough was nowhere in sight. I didn't see Fyntrilakis, but it's hard to believe he wasn't there. Was Dennis Murphy there? A few blacks and Latinos were present but those attending were overwhelmingly white and older. I  even spotted my old Sealtest milkman with his aged wife. 

In the middle of the room a long table was set up with plates, plastic dining utensils, large serving pans with heat beneath and a salad bowl station. The food consisted of rotini pasta in red sauce, large Italian meatballs with a nice tossed salad and a large container of parmesan cheese you could dump all over your food as much as you wanted. Near the end they brought out a large sheet of cake, chocolate with white frosting. 

At 7pm the place began to clear out. I left at 7:20. A voiceless Unknown call at 9:08pm. I chastised them for bothering me. 

May 21, 1999

Some rain overnight, otherwise a picture perfect day.

On the news it said that there is an anti-war movement going on in Yugoslavia that blames Milosovich's government for their misery. In the paper it says that Janice Raymond, a UMass professor, sees prostitution as a modern form of slavery. WNEC graduation is this weekend. I am quoted in Maureen Turner's Advocate article this week about the City Council meeting. 

I tried to call Mr. Whitney this morning but he couldn't talk because he was just leaving to visit his daughter who had a major operation. I called Patty at her shop but no one answered. Her voicemail said she is closed to attend a doctor's appointment but will be open Saturday at 12:30pm. 

I headed out slightly after 10am to Riverside and got a parking spot close to the gate. Lots of school busses in the lot and kids in school uniforms. They took my doggie collar and padlock and leash, but let me keep my leather bondage collar. I had to ask for my chains back on the way out and there was no problem. 

I tried two more rides, the high grade thriller Time Warp and the tame Antique Auto ride. I stood on the scale in the western village and my weight was 195, but that included my lumberjack boots and bike jacket, so maybe take off ten pounds. I bought a brownie for 99 cents. As I left I asked if they had printed rules of conduct I could have and they had none. When I got back home at 1:09pm, a guy in a little grey car honked and waved at me from Wilbraham Road as I was walking in the house. 

Later, while outside rinsing off my new red milk crate (from a Philadelphia dairy and dated 1978) a fat, balding, white shirted man came along and asked if I had ever heard of Pasquale's Restaurant. When I told him no he said it was in East Longmeadow. He then asked if I wanted to buy some restaurant coupons and asked where I like to eat out. I replied that I rarely eat out but when I do I especially like the Old Country Buffet and Pizzaria Uno. He said he had no coupons for them and left. 

Wrong number Patrick Tobin at 533-6978 called and said he was sorry to bother me. Tom Devine called at 3:12pm, saying that he saw me on the TV stadium meeting coverage. I told him about the fundraiser and how I was warmly greeted by Mayor Albano, to which Tom replied, "Albano's a fan of yours." We also discussed how Councilor W. Boyle is set to become a judge and how the newspaper has endorsed Fyntrilakis. 

Eamon called a little after 4pm and told me he is becoming increasingly discouraged about the Keough/Fyntrilakis contest. Eamon is mad because the newspaper accused the anti-stadium folks of causing "a ruckus" at the City Council meeting. He read me a letter he sent to Wayne Phaneuf at the paper on the subject, and while it had some good phrases in it reflecting Eamon's breadth of education, I told him it was probably too long to be published. I also told him about the fundraiser at the Boyle, and Eamon told me he had received an invitation from Albano to attend the event, but had used his  BULLSHIT stamp on it and then mailed it back. 

May 23, 1999

A lovely day. 

NPR says Gorbachev accused the US of "leading the world to disaster." Good for Gorby. There was a Friends of Bosnia rally at the Northampton Unitarian Society yesterday. Today was the final mass at Our Lady of St. Carmel in Ware. It will be torn down. The reporter was Kathryn Shepardson - any relation to Phil?

Put a couple of hours into the estate this weekend and cleared off the top of the china closet in the dining room. While doing so, I watched a half-hour infomercial on a product that fights arthritis by rebuilding cartilage in the knees and other joints.  A Dr. Glenn Halverson explained it all. 

Today was the debut of my all purple queer suit with the tight crotch. There was a big story about the Methodists welcoming gays in the religion section of Saturday's paper, so I decided to put it to the test by going to Trinity Church in all my queer regalia. 

My hair is about a half-inch long and dyed purple to match my outfit. I added two political buttons - We're Here, We're Queer, Get Used to It and Gay Rights are Civil Rights. I was all done up like a character out of a porn magazine, as textbook a queer as Springfield has ever seen. 

So dressed I strode into Trinity Church at 10:15am. Two ushers, a man and a woman, cheerfully greeted me. However, the older man who takes up the collection looked amazed. It was, after all, an amazing sight. I proceeded to my usual pew and found the usual family seated in front of me. 

Once the service was over, I made a point to line up to shake hands with the pastor. When my turn came I nonchalantly said hi and he smiled and replied, "Nice to see you." I then circled around to the information table and shook hands with Mrs. Goad. I stepped into the hallway and had a piece of crumb cake, then walked around so the maximum number of people could see me. 

From the corner of my eye I could see jaws dropping just about everywhere, especially among the older people. One group of old ladies just stood and stared at me, their mouths open aghast. Was just starting to lightly rain as I left and came almost directly home, pausing only at Louis & Clark to mail my Southpaw book order, a thank you postcard to Luttrell and some Dr. Seuss stuff to Mo Turner. 

I then drove out again in the afternoon and stopped at a couple of tag sales. At 144 Moss Road there was a large sale well-picked over. I got three milk crates at a dollar apiece and a quite remarkable yearbook of the United States Naval Training Center in Great Lakes, Illinois for Company 6 in 1964. It's just like a school yearbook. One thing you notice is how young the recruits seem. Some look scared shitless, as doubtless I would have. R. Gribble, the company clerk, appears the sort of nerd I would have been. 

The class consisted of 70, only three of which were black. It came with the GED diploma of Roger L. Macintire of 42 Cliftwood Street in Springfield. Also tucked into the yearbook was a clipping by Jack Smith about a drum festival that mentions the "sparkling Marksmen from Springfield." I paid five dollars for the whole mess. 

I took my marble-top table base to Patti's on Parker Street and her husband Bill Manning is going to glue it all up good.  Came home and completed two Where's Waldo? puzzles - Safari Park and On the Beach. Called Aunt Maria who joked that she was dying and said I shouldn't call so often. I called Charlie Ryan and left a message saying that I saw a copy of his mayoral campaign book in an antique shop priced at seven dollars. I told him, "You have produced a piece of ephemera that will be rising in the market from now until the end of time."

May 24, 1999

Overcast.

The Higgins Armory Museum in Worcester has an exhibit called Road Warriors and Night Riders: An Exhibition of Motorcycle Culture and the Chivalric Tradition. Today I found $760 dollars that Mother had squirreled away.

Physical labor builds character and we should have a national physical service requirement for everybody. In the middle of it all is sex but my parents protected me and suppressed my sexual urges. It's clear to me now how athletic activity and sexual development are related and that moral development requires there be athletic physical activity.

For youth today there is no discipline and discipline is one of the most important aspects of normal physical/sexual development. Discipline feels good, Ms. Vickers down the street said her son who played in the navy band remained in the service because he liked the discipline. We need some way of inspiring discipline without having to go to war. It's complicated. 

NPR at 5:04am says a study has established that Americans have 22 fewer hours a week for quality time with the family than three decades ago. I have said a number of times I recall how when I was a child they talked of shorter work weeks in the future. Instead we have longer work weeks with both parents working and people working multiple jobs. The standard of living has declined but because of wage slavery we are masking it. 

Maureen Turner's latest article says Rick Brown of the AFL-CIO and their allies at the Pioneer Valley Project "sold out cheap" to Albano's stadium project because of the jobs it would create. Albano is quoted in the paper accusing the anti-stadium group CANE of standing for "Citizens Against Nearly Everything."

Dined on puffed rice and bananas for breakfast and a Hungry Man Veal Cutlet Dinner for supper. Got my newspaper out of the trash down at Louis & Clark. Mail here by 12:30. Interesting how Mother had been a good customer of Sixteen Acres Mobil to the tune of hundreds of dollars but never received a discount. However, today's mail brought an invitation to the non-existent Joseph Miller for a Mobil Speedpass. I also got a letter from Roger J. Crandall, Executive Director of the New England Historic Genealogy Society, thanking me for my contribution to their microfilm project. 

Today I called Melinda Phelps at her law firm and spoke to her secretary Sandy. I reminded her that the picture I sent deserved the courtesy of a thank you note.  Then I called Mo Turner and invited her to go with me to the Eastec business show in West Springfield. She declined, saying she has a very busy schedule tomorrow. 

Eamon called and said he heard that Peter Picknelly is holding a big fundraiser for Mayor Albano at Monarch Place. Eamon then talked about how he used to sing in the navy and once performed an Irish ballad for Governor Fritz Hollings. I told Eamon I am using him as a reference on my latest job application to WNEC. 

This evening I caught the Antiques Road Show in Hartford on 57. Unknown called.

May 25, 1999

Lovely day, nice breeze.

A well developed imagination is the source of great deeds. 

The lock on my driver's side door no longer works. Swept the hatchway and vacuumed the basement. I am declaring the basement finished so now I have to do the first floor in a hurry so I can do some June entertaining. 

Gas prices are falling, at the Watershops Citgo it's $1.05 per gallon. An article in the Union-News says Springfield hopes to have a Red Sox farm team by 2001 if the stadium is built. 

I took off for the Eastec fair around 10:30am. Going through downtown I noticed that the Forbes & Wallace fountain at Monarch Place was gushing. Across the river, I stopped at the Burger King across from the Expo and bought a 99 cent chicken sandwich. I asked if they had any Twinky Winky dolls and he said they had none left, "They went pretty fast." 

When I drove onto the fair grounds I noticed they were waving cars into the Springfield end parking lot so I drove along to the Storrowtown Tavern and parked in front of the Rhode Island building. This was at 11:43am. I approached the sign-in booth and registration was a breeze, all done by computer. The guy who registered me said he was from Longmeadow. 

At the entrance stood a Pinkerton guard and I mentioned having seen their ad in the paper. I asked him if they gave him any training and he said he didn't need any training because his job was to just stand there. He told me he was hired on the spot merely by applying. I also saw lots of East Springfield Fire Department men standing around in uniform. There was blue astro-turf carpeting connecting all the buildings. 

There were practically no blacks in attendance, almost all were white males and Orientals. The last time I went to this fair several years ago it was much smaller. This time it appeared to have doubled in size. So I began at the Industrial Arts Building, where I noticed that the food vendors appeared to doing a booming business. An outdoor chuck wagon was also doing well. 

After walking all around the fair, I sat under the dome in front of the livestock pavilion and chatted with John Jacobson, a marketing manager from Hartford. He asked me if I was a biker and when I said no he said that when he was young bikers were considered delinquents. 

A caricaturist named Bill Dougal was sitting in a booth doing portraits for free. He did a nice job on me, and as he drew I gave him copyrighting advice. He told me he also writes music. My caricature took only four minutes.

There were lots of freebies. From Pressure Island I got an orange and green water pistol and a pen holder from CNC Systems Incorporated. I also got a free letter opener from Peter Pan, a midget basketball from the Hall of Fame and a Springfield Newspapers coffee mug. No free food but lots of candy. 

When I got back I dined on a discount Swedish meatball frozen dinner and was pleased to find that there were six meatballs in it as shown on the box. Tonight Susan Goodman of TV40 had a piece about the Eastech fair describing the economic spin-off. They always mention the money above all else. She said there were 22,000 in attendance. This was the 12th year of the show, and Eastec has contracted with the Expo to come here for five more years. 

May 26, 1999

Read newspapers this morning. The Union-News says Mark Russell Smith is leaving the Springfield Symphony Orchestra to become the Director of one in Richmond, Virginia. Dined on two lettuce and tomato sandwiches. Called Aunt Maria to alert her to an important letter from IBM, not to be shown to Ruth, and told her I shall take care of it  when I come over next.

Went downtown and parked on Salem at 11:26am and walked down the hill to the Seuss stamp unveiling. The exhibit hall of the Civic Center was comprehensively set up for the affair. As I entered the door the woman who works at the Feeding Hills Post Office cheerfully greeted me. I told her I take my things to her post office when I don't want Springfield to lose them. 

The hall had many chairs set up, but about 2/3rds of them were reserved. Up against the Dwight Street side was the stage. To the left of the front door was a balcony for the TV cameras. Against the far wall was an Abdow's Big Boy statue and three 50's cars, two toned with fins. Michaelson's Gallery of Northampton and Amherst were displaying framed Seuss illustrations for sale around $350-400 each, but I already have several Seuss originals. 

Loud rock music was playing at another booth where the Pioneer Valley Stamp Club was promoting itself. The Springfield Post Office also had a booth with lots of glitzy philatelic promotional material. They had forms so you could vote on the topics and people from the 1990's to be made into stamps, although if you think about it, technically the 90's are not over! They also were selling various postal pins of the kind I've seen them giving away for free at trade shows. I bought nothing. 

I sat in the front row where the general public was allowed to sit, behind all the reserved seating for people like David Starr. There were lots of postal workers wearing red t-shirts and I recognized John Hegarty, President of the Mail Handler's Union. I also spotted Lyman Wood in a tan suit coat. Joe Carvalho was there but we didn't get a chance to speak. Richard Neal sent his aide Kevin Kennedy, who told us the congressman couldn't be there because he was attending an event at the Holocaust Museum in Washington. 

School children danced and sang for us, but the kid's choir was a bit sour and when they sang in the higher range it was awful. The main speaker was Seuss widow Audrey Geisel, who spoke well and briefly.


She talked about how she had "adopted Springfield" which might be considered condescending. She recalled the time she and her husband visited his childhood home and how he couldn't recall the location of his bed. She also recalled attending the first Cat in the Hat balloon parade (from which I have one of the doubtless now rare posters) describing it as a "frigid day" and how exciting it was for her. At the conclusion of her talk she called Springfield "a special place as you will always be." The sound system worked fine and I didn't miss a single word of anything. 

Afterwards I heard a woman who bought a sheet of stamps say that she hoped her Cat in the Hat stamps would be much more valuable in the future. The truth is these commemorative stamps never increase much in value, which is why I stopped collecting them in 1980. Too many are distributed and everyone saves them so they never become rare. The only exception is the duck hunting stamps from the 1940's. 

I made one last tour around the hall and then departed. On my way back to Salem I noticed that one of the Tiffany slag glass windows in the Baptist Church is broken in one corner. I was back in the car at 2:03 and drove over to the West Springfield Burger King for a chicken sandwich and fries.  As I was arriving home, Cohn drove by and waved. 

May 27, 1999

Milosovic and several of his top officials have been indicted for war crimes and genocide. The market continues to tumble, down 235 to 10,466. It is due to fears of higher interest rates and maybe a recession down the road. 

Heard a Mozart Quintet on the radio this morning. TV40 at 6:45am claimed that since standards for rating content on TV have been abolished, the shows have become "ruder, cruder and lewder." I have observed a similar phenomenon in professional codes of ethics. 

I prepared some event programs and other freebies for Maureen Turner and then went out to mail them at Louis & Clark via Joanne. She said she is going to an all-day concert on Monday. When leaving I ran into Mr. Ciantra, who greeted me and asked how Mother is. I told him she died and he expressed condolences, then told me his mother died some months ago at 82. 

My next stop was Angelo's where I bought a six-pack of flower seeds for $1.49. They had native peas but I didn't buy any because it is too early. Then to Mrs. Staniski's, where she was just stepping out into her yard. She didn't want me to do anything for her, but said she loves the pretty floral Mother's Day card I sent her and showed me where she had taped it to the wall. She then pointed to a lovely yellow rose bush and said Mother had given it to her. I took a picture of it. This weekend is Ann's 61st birthday. 

Cutting through St. Michael's to get to Wilbraham Road, there was a goose crossing the road toward the pond by the Picknelly monument with a brood of goslings trailing behind her. First time I've seen such a procession in years. I delivered my job application to Professor O'Donogue at WNEC and received a receipt from the receptionist Susette Curto. 

She asked if I had finished law school and I told her yes, long ago. Did I like it? This made me suspicious that she was on a fishing expedition based perhaps on some gossip about me she had heard. I replied evasively that I enjoyed attending law school with students younger than me, as it helped to keep me young. But then I added, "Of course there are always rotten apples in every barrel." I wished her a good weekend and then departed. 

Eamon's newest tape crows about the victory of Righty Keough over Fyntrilakis in the special election:
 
 
"Have you noticed that they're mourning at the 1860 Main Street headquarters of the Union-Snooze over their endorsed candidate's loss in the state rep election? Flags are flying at half-mast, black bunting drapes the building and the entire editorial staff, including chief mourner Toots Starr and toady scribe Twinkles McDermott are wearing black armbands. It's not the first time their endorsed candidate has lost, but their dwindling readership is getting sick and tired of their heavy-handed editorial policies."



May 29, 1999

Sunny, hot and humid.

The news this morning said the Baystate Medical Center nursing program has a 96% graduation rate. The national average is 83%. The word obelisk was mispronounced by Ray Herschel on TV40 at 6:03am in a story about Smith Vocational High School. 

Tracy Kidder was on TV talking about his book Hometown and addressing criticism that there were no lesbians in the book, which some are saying is a major oversight in a book about Northampton. He said he chose his subjects by their personalities, not by what ethnic or sexual category they belonged to. He claimed he tried to cover as many aspects of Northampton as he could, but it is still hard not to suspect that he excluded lesbians out of homophobia. 

I addressed the pile around the stairs, sorting it out and cleaning it up, also spent about seven hours on Mother's estate. The Iris is coming out, supposedly blue but looks more like deep purple to me. Put out the sundial today. Every day some little thing gets done.  

The mail brought a notice from the Bethel Herald saying that my subscription expires June 1st. Pretty short notice! Got a copy of the Chronicle of Philanthropy, even though I cancelled my subscription. My editor Paul Martello wrote saying the final corrections have been made on my new book Coke in Verse and it will be sent to the printer June 7th. 

Never got the poster promised to me by Westfest. That is why you don't forego snitching a poster when you can rather than politely asking them to send you a copy, as they seldom do. I could follow up and get them to send one to me, but the time involved makes it foolish. 

I headed out to Breckwood, and finding the copyshop closed, used the one at Louis & Clark. I also mailed my payment to Drysdale at the Herald, noting the short notice but also thanking him for many past courtesies. I also mailed to Bell Atlantic and the Spam Fan Club

Then drove down Rosewell to where there was supposed to be a tag sale, but it was only a bunch of junk from the close out of Donna's Collectables and Crafts in Springfield. Next I got corn and bananas at Angelo's, then went to Freihoffer's for bread and pastry.  

While cutting through the Springdale Mall there was a big black Cadillac with a black woman beside it standing in front of Old Country Buffet. I stopped and got out and there was a sign on the door saying the Buffet had closed and to go to the one in West Springfield. She asked me how to get there and after I told her she told me she was from New York. Was home at 3:25pm, where I noticed that someone has smashed the Allard's mailbox. Dined on a Swanson's Fish & Chips Dinner

Called Aunt Maria, she said she went riding today with Ruth. I asked if Ruth would ever drive her over here some time to visit me and Aunt Maria said she didn't think so. Finally, Eamon's new tape concludes with the observation that "the difference between a cup of yogurt and Springfield is that a cup of yogurt has a live culture." Very good. 

May 31, 1999

Lovely day, mild.

Heard on the radio today Vivaldi's Concerto for fiddles. The paper says Harvard Pilgrim Healthcare is dumping their Western Mass senior citizens and I have wrote them an angry letter. Bob Hope has celebrated his 96th birthday and his wife celebrated her 90th the day before. Jack Benny was my favorite comedian. 

Drove out at 9:30am and mailed to Southpaw at Breckwood and bought a copy of the NY Times. Gas at Breckwood Shell is $1.11 per gallon. When driving past Duggan the kids were all outside with fire trucks, but nothing about it on the news so maybe just a drill. Arrived at Riverside at 10:23 and saw maroon Wilbraham & Monson Academy vans parked in the lot. Again my chain belt was challenged and I had to leave it with Officer Oswaldo. 

I went directly to the Mind Eraser ride and climbed aboard. It was early so there was no wait, the ride left me feeling a little dizzy but that's all. I'll take Nader the Hatter on it sometime, he would like it. I went on no other rides today as a control on the Mind Eraser's effects. 

The water park area is now open and it is simply fabulous. It has numerous water based activities including a pool that is seven feet at the deep end. All around there are white plastic lawn chairs. Lots of certified life guards, even at the wading pool. You have to have appropriate swim-wear and they have men's trunks for sale for $20, woman's swimsuits for $49 and locker rentals for $5 plus an additional $5 key deposit. I chatted with the swimsuit sales lady and she said the best time to come to the water park is in the morning before the afternoon rush. 

I spent time in one of the several video game rooms on the midway by the pavilion. I found an especially choice gun game where you fire at endless waves of aliens. The name of the game was Revolution X and the rock music accompanying it was by Aerosmith. The cost of the game was fifty cents. At one point I filled out a questionnaire that put me in a raffle for a new 1999 automobile. Where they asked for your occupation I put "gay prostitute and drug dealer."  

Back home, I spent some time working in the attic. I found numerous pairs of shoes, still tied together from the store, that were bought but never worn by Mother. Also came upon a box of five hernia trusses that, according to a note in Mother's handwriting, Father wore between 1970 and 1973. My parents were Victorians and never told me of Father's hernia or the operation. 

Also found an old rug from Crest Street with a tag on it reading Superior Rug Cleaning Service, 247 Hancock Street in Springfield. Came upon the papers of Frank Wilson, my maternal grandfather. He had only one eye and his life was one of scraping along, although they say he had a way with women. 

Dined on chicken and pastaroni plus a nice lettuce and tomato salad.  M. Goodman called looking for Storrowtown. It was a long day and I dozed off and missed half of the second installment of Antique Roadshow from Hartford. 

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